Jonathan Griffin

To My Father,

I can’t. . .

I can’t even. . .

I can’t even begin to express my life on paper.

You know that feeling of nothing?  Maybe you don’t.  I can’t fully describe the fact that you are gone.

Nevertheless, I feel the stress of a life worthless without you here.

I never thought you would leave so soon.  There are so many things I never got to say to you.  In life, time is our enemy and we often forget that.  We often forget to call and say I love you.  Often, we forget to check on the ones we love.   I could not be prouder to have a Father like you.  You were always there for me.  Even when you were away from me, I could feel your presence. You taught me the lessons of life.  I remember when I was a kid you would walk me home from school and we would talk about everything.  Most of all we would talk about life, integrity and how to treat people.  You had a big heart.  Later in life, I would realize you had a lot of demons; some flaws in your character, but don’t we all?

When you and Mom got divorced, I watched your world crumble.  You loved so hard.  I often think of the times when the two of you were together.  I know that time was the happiest you’ve ever been.  You loved your family the same.  You were my biggest fan.  You were so proud of me.  You would always say, “Jay, no matter what I’m gonna always love you.”

I’m going to miss those phone calls just to see if I was happy.  I’m gonna miss those car rides when we would just politic for hours.  You always wanted the best for me. You always had the answer to life’s questions.  I don’t know how I’m going to live without you.  I just know that now I have an Angel in heaven telling God how proud he is of his Son.

I Love You Pops!

Love your Son,

Jonny X Griffin